luces umbrarum

smelling the queen of pain

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smelling the day

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smelling the tholian web encircling the inner wrath

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smelling the dish pointing at the little black spot in the sun today

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smelling the wet stones on the dry grass in the wild forest at the desert sea

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smelling the other way

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there was no smell this day of the year

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smelling the light et the begging of a nutterfly

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smelling a progression in time dilation

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smelling an a or a ann

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smelling a skope of misspelling

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smelling the tuna

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smelling the mountains on venus

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smelling the self-baked ..... disaster

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smelling the fake ....

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smelling the sun rise

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listening to the first smell

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listening to the last word

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listening to human reaction

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listening to the stars collapsing

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listening to the birds cry

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listening to induced sleep apnea

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listening to self-deluded crap

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listening to those watchers

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listening doesn't always ...

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listening to somewhere

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listening to wings flattering themself

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not listening

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listening

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listening to her sound

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listening to words never uttered

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listening to that stupid voice in my head

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listening to milk flower

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listening to the music fading forward

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listening to the hell sinking

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listening to the water fall

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Due to a mental hiccup, some images might appear twice to the beholder's eye.

If worries arise, please consult the nearest optometrist or bonesetter.

Have a nice day.

Greetings to the soft ice....

listening to those half-hearted epiphanies

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listening to night songs

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listening to the wind blow, twice

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Fourteen years and counting.

listening to a ship blowing up

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listening to the hair

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listening to the tears falling

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listening to tongue in cheek

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listening to the ice fading away

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listening to their yawns

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listening to the glass falling to pieces

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listening to the funny birds

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view from not far away

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Concluding this month weeks before it happens, I look back and feel no regret anymore. It seems simpler from far away than it was when it was close.

But it is still not closed.

view from the outside in

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view from beneath

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view from walking down the stairs

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view from a similar photograph

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view from a reciprocal distance

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view from a heightened place

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view from the sidewalk of trash

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view from a dog waiting for a cat

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view from the auditorium

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view from the first light

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view from a cuckoo

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view from the telly

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view from the future

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view from one day not before

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view from a five year old schoolboy or -girl or -dog or -cat

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view from a hidden place .... a bush

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view from caprica

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view from in between no legs

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view from a drive by

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view from a parallel universe

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view from .....

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view from anywhere

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This is the is the last day in this century that can be described with single digits, but not the last to describe anything else.

It's just a little bit more difficult.

view from another mountain

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view from the inside of a moving, snow covered car

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view from snow covered roof, obviously

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view from a moving car

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view from outside the inside

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view from down under

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view from that city in the south

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view from some kind of crane for concert halls

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view from the inside

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view from down there

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view from above

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view from a night shift

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view from the morning cigarette

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tomorrow will be like may

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Only 11% of this medium are used right now, so tomorrow, the 22nd, another 5 will be added.
But should I go to 100%? Shouldn't I just leave it alone?

Glimpses from Chicago.

Glimpses from today.

in between moments

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Carrying on a torch that should have been extinguished by now.

But who cares.....

something is coming

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in Berlin at the beginning of every month, and two years sober now.

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Life fucks you sideways, doesn't it?

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Licht und Schatten

Schwarz ihre Brauen,
Weiß ihre Brust,
Klein mein Vertrauen,
Groß doch die Lust.

Schwatzhaft mit Blicken,
Schweigend den Zung,
Alt das Mißglücken,
Wunsch immer jung;

Arm, was ich brachte,
Reich meine Lieb;
Warm, was ich dachte,
Kalt, was ich schrieb.

Franz Grillparzer

With this poem, I read a while ago, I start off this old blogging of mine with a finally grammatically correct new Luces Umbrarum address.

It began with a wedding in Hannover, on which I didn't take that much photos, and only a few are show worthy.

Shortly after that my uncle (the brother of my father) died. It wasn't much of a shock, as he was already in the hospital, like my father four years ago.
I could see him the next day, and I think the concept of death settled a little bit more in me, after he lay there without moving for fifteen minutes.
But I still don't get the whole picture of life, but as I grow I understand more and less.

I worked for six weeks ten to twelvety hours a day at night, earning me some money to live after the state won't support me anymore after I turn 27.
It was good having something to do, but as the summer ends, I get into my yearly depression as it seems, I have lost interest in most things, even thinking.

But what the frack, I'm still alive at least.

Nothing else worth mentioning besides the following photographs.

Have a fantastic week

Franz Grillparzer

And so it begins again, in another cycle of thoughts, that seem to be only expressed with imagery.

At least you know mine.